You have to be alive to enjoy eyebrows, eyelashes, and hair of any kind.
I've developed "needle-phobia". On the way to chemo this morning, I started crying just thinking about the IV poke, and again once the nurse inserted the IV. You know what? It really didn't hurt. I have been going to the acupuncturist and now can't even make my next appointment because even Bill's little needles hurt. Please remember, I've never been sick and have no relationship with needles; not even sewing on a button needle!
I'll have to post some photos of Lauren's car. Jonny and Emily were here for a few days and were parked in the garage so poor Laur's car was iced over (glaciated?...is that a word?) in the driveway. Cryogenics. Had a text message from Jonny. He and Emily are driving back to Milwaukee as I type this. He's going under the speed limit and said there are a lot of cars and semis in the ditch. Better to be safe and get there in one piece.
Since I had the Cisplatin last Friday, I've felt nauseous and even dream about not feeling good. I'm supposed to be drinking as much fluid as I can get down. Honestly, the smell of water, juice, even 7-up...urgh. (I'm not complaining, just trying to explain what it's like going through this.)
I eagerly await the postman at the end of my driveway so I can see what bills I get daily. I did say I would update what my bills are for various scans, surgery, anesthesiologist, specialists, etc. I promise I will get those numbers out tomorrow. I don't feel like much of a story teller right now.
You have to BE ALIVE to sorrow for the loss of your hair, eyebrows, and eyelashes.
January 20, 2010
5:33 p.m.
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Lauren's car looks like something from the back of my freezer - YIKES!!! See ya in April, car!
ReplyDeleteNo, needles just seem so avoidable - I mean, really, what's the point? Ouch - that was probably more painful than the needles!!
BTW - Hair's overrated. Nuts, I have more hair in my ears than most people have on their heads! Tell ya what - I'll clip and braid them for you!
Just think mom, if you lose all your hair, you get to start over fresh-your hair will be dye free and healthy! I wish I could get back to my roots :)
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Hahaha Mark, you're so funny...I took a blowdryer out to my car today so I that I didn't have to wait until April to drive her again. Let me know if you need our address...I think Suz would LOVE that braided ear hair! ahahha!!
ReplyDeleteI go to all of Mom's treatments...a lot of the women that are there cry every day. Her chemo is in this new building by our house called the Cancer Center (I believe). First floor is for radiation; second for Chemo. There are private rooms with beds for people who are too tired to sit up and a large bright open room with about 16 oversized reclining chairs for the other chemo patients. Each chair has its own personal television and people are free to get up and use the restroom (most of Mom's treatments are between an hour to three hours, but we met a woman on Monday who goes in for her treatment first thing in the morning and doesn't finish until the end of the day...Suz has it EASY!!!) :) Today besides Mom, there were probably 5 or 6 others. In your defense though, Mom, they're pretty big needles they're using for your IV (and she bruises after every IV), so a few tears are okay. She's doing really GREAT though! Mom, you're a really strong woman and I'll let you cry as much as you want (but ONLY if you start going to the gym with me!!!).
Lauren,
ReplyDeleteWait - the name of the building is the "Cancer Center"? Man, they really didn't waste any energy in the creative department! I mean, cripes - at LEAST call it the "Cancer-Free Center"! Of course, there's nothing really "free" about it, but...
I know - how 'bout we call it "The Super-Happy-Fun Center"? And their slogan could be, "WE Know How To Live!"
Just to let you know, I think Susie's crying because she hates going to the gym!
Oh, by the way - the braids are in the mail!!
Hahahah I think that's pretty accurate...she's crying because she hates going to the gym!! Although we DID go to the gym today! Sooo nice...it's brand new and she's going to be doing their Livestrong program there!
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